Monday, March 7, 2011

In search of the real need...


A small line of the morning sun is falling on her lap and she is engrossed in her search of any new movie to watch at the theater. She declares, "Mid day is a faltu newspaper".

Nandini loves watching movies... Mostly drama and horror. You will never find her picking up a comedy film from the parlor. She just loves drama, romance and betrayal. Human beings just don’t stop entertaining her. The intricacy of each of them and the dynamics between each is so intriguing for her ever-wanting-to-get-amused mind.

Nandini is not pretty but attractive. It has been couple of years that she has taken plentiful energy to get back to a healthy shape and yes she is at it and consistently. How she loved to drink. But these days the effect of the wild fun night is smashed and squeezed out of her body when the hangover sets in. Hence avoiding alcohol and somehow the wish to get wild and mad is no longer sitting there strongly in her heart. Aging does such wonders to you. Isn’t it? So yoga and gym alternate days for 6 days a week and Sunday stays the fun day.
Nandini loves to read and finishes reading at least 2 books a month. And she can read 4 books simultaneously. Books about psychoanalysis, science and spirituality, occult, paranormal, history, art, Bermuda triangle, area 51 and music.
Well, talking about music, she always wanted to be a singer. For whatever reason, not material but she thinks it’s her lack of passion that she couldn’t pursue her dream. At 35 she is at a stage where she can pursue her dream once again after some negotiations with life. So she sings as background vocals for hindi film songs, sings jingles and does voice over for ad films. Her diction was never very good but in past 10 years it has improved and at a point of time she was determined, she has to get rid of the Bengali accent she had as she hated people telling her…”o god, you are so Bengali when you speak”.
It is a ritual. Yes it is. Once in every year she makes a long trip outside the country. Hang on, she has seen the most of her own country and only then she has started flying over to the others. Yet a long list of places to be seen. And the list is growing longer and longer.
These days Nandini is quite excited about her short film. She plans to shoot it soon…

There is always a path that leads to your dream destination. With the cries and screams of the daily life i lost it somehow...
Time to start again... be ready to unlearn and learn everyday and be loyal to myself.
Time to bring back Nandini...

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